Aaaaand the baby starts crying. I'll be back...
Things have just been plain nuts around here. In and out of town, a single parent for a while, missing my husband, a mom of an almost 3 year old (who, I'm hoping, will magically grow out of the terrible twos ON his third birthday or before), a mom of a darling 6 month old who wholeheartedly depends on me 24 hours a day...I could go on. I'm trying to juggle all these things and sometimes it just gets to be too much. Maybe I'm the only one? Maybe I'm the only one that complains? Sometimes, it's just tough being a mom and a wife.
Chuck says that I try to be a "supermom", taking care of the kids, expecting them to act like I think they should (perfectly - people tell us ALL the time they are great, act great, STRANGERS stop us in Five Guys and tell us how proud of us they are, it's weird), taking care of all the household things, being involved, taking care of him. He tells me I'm a good mom, he tells me I'm a good wife, he tells me I'm a good photographer, he says I just don't believe him. And that's something up to me. Isn't it. He can't hold a gun to my head and say "BELIEVE ME, WOMAN!" It just doesn't work that way. There's a difference between being proud and being confident. I need to try to be a little more confident and not as much of a downer. Let's face it, when people tell you you're good at something and you shrug it off or you don't make yourself believe them, you come off as a downer. Sometimes not as modest as maybe you think you are being.
So, here's a bridge. I wrote this on Thursday. It's now Monday. SO much has happened since Thursday!!! I may just have to get to that other stuff in another post, because it's a lot.
I was reading Tiana's blog (Chuck's cousin in Nashville) and she and I keep up (well, I don't exactly keep up as much as she does, read the above) with the same blog called Simple Mom and she started this thing called Project Simplify. Who needs this?? I DO, I DO!! And if you say you don't, YOU ARE either Wonder Woman/Man or you're fooling yourself. What American DOESN'T need this?? Of course, I got in on this at the very end of the first week, but I'm going to do my best to catch up. You should definitely keep up with it!! Last week was your closet. Hmmmmm, our closet is about as big as a room. I'm not kidding, my sister sleeps in there when she comes to visit because it's nice and dark and big enough. NOW, Delaney sleeps in there.
So, you're supposed to take a before and after picture. Of course, I had JUST cleaned up a big chunk THAT MORNING!! I almost got all the stuff I cleaned up back out so I could really take a before pic but I was too lazy and I'd already done it. I'm not nuts!! I still need to get the pics off my camera, so I'll try to post those later today. And I haven't gotten to cleaning it all out because of everything that was going on this weekend, but I WILL do it, in addition to this weeks "Hot Spot": Paper Clutter. Hmmmm, have you seen my kitchen? Have you seen my computer desk? She's talking about anywhere, your office, your kitchen, your junk drawer, your kids craft area (what kids craft area? Isn't that the kitchen?? :) ). Everywhere. But her point is that paper will keep coming, whether it be those priceless crafts or receipts, business paperwork, TAXES!!! There will always be paper. So, what to do with it.
This is my major plan this week, along with having Chuck's dad in town. I will do my best.
Well, bringing it back to how I started this post. My goal is to STOP DOUBTING AND BELIEVE. The ladies that read this and were with me last weekend will know what I'm talking about, and sometime in the near future you will, too. There's a lot of things I have to STOP DOUBTING AND BELIEVE about, but this is one of them. And for me, and I think a lot of other ladies/moms, it's very important. Because it affects your whole life. Including your relationships. Not just yourself.
4 comments:
You are not the only one who feels/felt that way. You are not unusual, just temporarily overwhelmed. Just chip away at one project at a time and pick several things to keep up with so they don't get out of hand.
You know how I clean and neat I try to keep my house, but with my painting project, this place is a wreck. The painting project is wrapping up on what I have started and I am trying to put everything back where they belong.
At one point I was stressing out about what to do first: figure taxes, pay bills, paint, clean house, do laundry, start a new job. AHHHHH! Take a breath and do the most important thing first and so on down the list.
And I don't have kids to handle on top of that.
Love you!!!!!!
Can you think of anyone who is a master in their field (if so have they been on the job longer than three years)? Every day in every job the employee (our full time job is mom) is learning and growing, making mistakes, figuring out a good balance of priorities. And then a new challenge gets thrown in! We are works in progress my dear and I know that your kids and husband are Loved (most important) and very well cared for. One day you will believe it too! Hugs from STL.
PS "Real" employees get time off, it can get crazy being on 24/7!!!
I need a "LIKE" button! I'm right there with you. Sometimes I just make myself step back and remember that they only get one childhood, and I only get one chance. That being said, I have to make sure what I am doing at that moment is important for them and for me.
Have you started on the paper clutter yet? Oh my gosh, Dawn! The paper clutter project is going to be the end of me! I'm getting there, but it's amazing how much JUNK I've found just lying around in drawers and boxes. But I gotta say, I feel really happy when I look in my master closet :)
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